im not gonna mention the last time i wrote anything here
not that it matters
i was with him a while ago
and i waited for the butterflies
but they never came...
i guess they got into traffic
we got into it on the highway later tonight too.
i didn't see them though...
the butterflies.. i guess they were never supposed to come..

we were side by side
but there were no bells or chills
or sweet music in the background
only awkward silence
coupled with the occasional stifled comments at the movie
a forced giggle, a wry smile here and there..
out of respect i guess...
i guess i was waiting for it to happen again
as i've always had.
for reasons i have never understood
i have always kept pushing things to work..
for romance to happen
but then i learned that it gets crappy sometimes
when you force your way into a pithole
that you dug yourself
you realize sooner or later that being stuck in there
wasn't such a good idea anymore
and that those butterflies...
sometimes they find someplace else to go...